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10:59am 27/07/2002
 
mood: accomplished
this will be my last live journal entry
live journal screwed up my life
haha.
jk.
but it did ruin it a little
lets just say my parents found my journal when downloading the memory of my computer
they did not like what they read
they know everything now
eh, i like it better this way
no more hidding
so goodbye everyone
not like anyone read my journal anyways
peace
rachel
 
     
 
   
01:26am 24/07/2002
 
mood: contemplative
i figured out why i am a social smoker
because of the fact
that the best conversations
occur when smoking
on the corner
with a friend
its just better when your smoking.

god, im just figuring out everything tonight
this is my "get you head straighted out" night
anyone have any questions while im on fire here?
 
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this kiss this kiss...   
01:09am 24/07/2002
 
mood: contemplative
ya know in movies and songs
how they always talk about the tastes of kisses and such?
i was thinking about that today
and how they do have tastes
each kiss has a different taste
and sometime, when you least expect it
your mouth tastes like someones kiss
like today
my mouth tasted like kyle
just in the middle of work
no warning
it tasted like kyle
i wasnt even thinking about him
how weird is that?

does anyone else know what i am talking about or am i crazy?
 
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funfun fun in the sun.   
12:58am 24/07/2002
 
mood: peaceful
i had a good day
alex + dave= fun
josh + dave= fun
josh + rachel=love
haha. hes so cute. he got off at 5:30ish and he waited tell i got off at 6 and walked me out to my car
and hes gonna burn me some cds
sigh..
i know
its nothing
but its ok
cause it means something to me
its slow, but i am accepting that
=) someday
my main boss and i talked about moving me back to music
i think they are gonna go ahead and do that =)
i hate being a cashier
its pretty stressful
and he talked to me about meg
=) looking good
and alex turned in an app.
looks good for her too

alex and i hung out tonight
i love pretty in pink
and target
when its with alex
and driving at midnight
listening to gorillaz

my dad is doing good
thank you everyone for your concern

im gonna start recording all my dreams in a journal
not online, on paper
dreams are sooo amazing
i look forward to sleeping every night
just to see what/who i dream about
josh was in my dream last night
but usually dreams with him involve work
which are bad stress dreams
thats not good
i will change that

lauren hill, will you be my mom?
 
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my goals and what i have achieved   
12:58am 23/07/2002
 
mood: hungry
these should look fimilar to you all:
my goals for this summer:
1) to have fun and hang out with my friends- yes, i have done this
2) to make a lot of money- mmhhh
3) to find some cute boys- haha. yea. one named josh
4) to go to some shows- yea, went to a few
5) a. skrew random guys with no attachments or- oh yea..did that one
b. find a good boyfriend- working on it. his name is josh =)
6) get fucked up a lot- haha. a lot a lot
7) finish my summer reading for ap history- damn it! not yet!
8) talk to kyle again- i did more then talk to kyle =) haha
9) to sneak out at least once or twice and stay out all night- i snuck out, but got caught. and i snuck out technically at that party the other night successfully
10) to stay up 3 days in a row- not yet
11) to sleep all day...24 hours or more..without being sick- nope, i will tho

so, 3 goals unattained. im working on it guys..getting there.

peace
rachel
 
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stold from kriz who stold from others..haha   
12:01am 23/07/2002
 
mood: blah
[[FIRST & MIDDLE NAME:]] rachel diane
[[NICKNAMES:]] rae, rach
[[HAIR COLOR:]] red
[[HAIR LENGTH:]] short and kindda spikey but not?
[[EYE COLOR:]] i say they are blue, everyone thinks they are green
[[HEIGHT:]] 5'8" i think
[[WEIGHT:]] haha. like im gonna say that. =) not fat tho
[[BIRTHDAY:]] january 1st new years day baby!
[[LOCATION:]] colorado springs
[[SHOE SIZE:]] 8 1/2 or 9
[[ZODIAC SIGN:]] capricorn
[[SIBLINGS:]] 3 sis, and 1 bro who isnt like a brother
[[PETS:]] 1 mouse, 2 dogs, and 3 cats. god, my house is a fucking zoo

[[FAVORITES]]

[[GENRE OF MUSIC:]] punk, emo, regaee, hip hop, and lots of others
[[MUSIC ARTIST:]] hmm...the cure
[[MOVIE:]] rocky horror picture show, alice in wonderland, nightmare before christmas, and edward scissorhands
[[ACTOR:]] i dont know
[[BRAND:]] hmm..thrift stores?
[[LABEL:]] i dont know
[[SONG:]] "stellar"=incubus, "amber"=311, "morningstar"=afi
[[FOOD:] speghetti
[[DRINK:]] water
[[COLOR:]] black, red, and blue
[[NUMBER:]] seven
[[CANDY:]] york peppermint patties
[[TV SHOW:]] the simpsons
[[FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:]] taco bell
[[GIRL NAME:]] tuesday
[[BOY NAME:]] kirby or gus
[[NAIL POLISH COLOR:]] black
[[RADIO STATION:]] 98.9 magic fm baby!!!!!
[[ANIMAL:]] meow cats
[[STORES:]] the arc, the rave (ouch) and umm...whatever has cool cothes
[[SCENT:]] boys, and peppermint
[[ICE CREAM FLAVOR:] strawberry
[[QUOTE:]] "shut up smee" haha..."whatevea whatevea! i do what i want!!"
[[HOLIDAY:]] halloween
[[DAY OF THE WEEK:]] thursday
[[MONTH:]] april

[[DISLIKES]]

[[GENRE OF MUSIC:]] pop and country
[[MUSIC ARTIST:]] brittany spears and stuff like that
[[MOVIE:]] anything mary kate and ashley olson
[[ACTOR:]] freddie prince jr
[[BRAND:]] roxy
[[SONG:]] umm..too many?
[[WORD:]] word!!!!
[[FOOD:]] meat!!!!!!!!
[[DRINK:]] a lot of pop and prune juice
[[COLOR:]] teal..its soo 80's
[[NUMBER:]] 32942394823042..god, i hate that #
[[CANDY:]] fruity candy
[[TV SHOW:]] tv sucks.
[[FAST FOOD RESTARAUNT:]] mcdonalds...umm...a lot
[[GIRL NAME:]] brittany or candance..and umm..
[[BOY NAME:]] JEFF!!!!!!!
[[NAIL POLISH COLOR:]] pink..lite pink that is
[[RADIO STATION:]] the country ones!!!!!
[[ANIMAL:]] slothes. i hate slothes..
[[STORES:]] old navy
[[SCENT:]] garbage and the smell of wades cafe..growl
[[ICE CREAM FLAVOR:]] vanilla
[[QUOTE:]]i dont know
[[DAY OF THE WEEK:]] monday
[[MONTH:]] february

[[DO YOU]]

[[THINK YOU ARE ATTRACTIVE:]] hell ya! im soo cute
[[THINK YOU'RE SMART:]] ya. im pretty bright..but no common sense
[[THINK YOU HAVE COMMON SENSE:]] i just said i didnt
[[PLAY SPORTS/ WHAT KIND OF SPORTS DO YOU LIKE:]] i am a cheerleader. haha. jk guys
[[SHAVE:]] yes. if i didnt that would be gross
[[BELIEVE IN ALIENS:]] hey mom theres something in the backroom..hope its not the creatures from above
[[LIKE SITCOMS:]] nope. not really. only the simpsons and such
[[HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND:]] naw
[[THINK YOUR STYLE/FASHION IS COOL:]] yes. i like the way i dress a lot a lot
[[HAVE ANY PIERCINGS:]] yesmmm
[[DO DRUGS:]] ya
[[DRINK:]] yes
[[HAVE SEX:]] yea

[[HAVE YOU EVER]]

[[SMOKED:]] yes.
[[DRANK:]] yes.
[[GOTTEN DRUNK:]] yes.
[[WENT BUNJEE JUMPING:]] no.
[[HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER:]] yes, i have. in 7th grade. he rocked.
[[BROKE THE LAW:]] yes. =( had to go to court too
[[RAN FROM THE COPS:]] nope
[[KISSED A GIRL:]] on the cheek
[[KISSED A GUY:]] yea
[[LAUGHED:]] all the time. at every freaking thing
[[BEEN SARCASTIC:]] ya
[[BEEN EMBARASSED:]] yes
[[CRIED:]] "i never cry"-wild hearts cant be broken
[[WANTED TO DIE:]] i think so
[[BEEN SCARED TO HALF DEATH:]] yea. i think i have
[[STOLE ANYTHING:]] haha. see "broke the law"
[[FARTED IN SCHOOL:]] IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!! I COULDNT HOLD IT BACK!
[[PRIVATE PARTS:]] what???????
[[MADE YOURSELF THROW UP:]] i wanted to get back the ball to my tounge ring.hhaa
[[THOUGHT ABOUT OR TRIED TO KILL YOURSELF:]] yes
[[WENT SKINNY DIPPING:]] no
[[BEEN IN LOVE:]] i think so
[[HAD A MILK MUSTACHE:]] no
[[SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND DID NOT MEAN IT:]] oh yea!!!!!
[[GOTTEN INTO A FIGHT WITH YOUR PET:]] for your infor kriz, i have. kcjo and i fight all the time. and its not physical. its verbal.
[[HAD A DREAM ABOUT SOMETHING WIERD AND IT HAPPENED THE NEXT DAY:]] oh yea. about ceramics class
[[STALKED SOMEONE:]] oh yes...
[[HAD A MUD BATH:]] no?
[[WISHED YOU WERE THE OPPOSITE SEX:]] yes

[[WHAT COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU HEAR]]

[[BLUE:]] my room
[[SOCKS:]] my feet.
[MIRROR:]] how hot i am
[[CRACKER:]] white boys
[[COW:]] meat =(
[[FRANCE:]] gay people
[[ZINE:]] indepentness??
[[AOL:]] sucks
[[JELLY:]] yumm...
[[FISH:]] are ugly

[[LAST PERSON WHO]]

[[WROTE YOU A NOTE:]] meg at school i think?
[[CALLED YOU:]] meg from school
[[KISSED YOU:]] haha...you all know about that one
[[HUGGED YOU:]] tina at work
[[EMAILED YOU:]] erin
[[TOLD YOU THEY LOVE YOU:]] my dad
[[WAS MEAN TO YOU:]] adam the bitch
[[SAID SOMETHING NICE TO YOU:]] paul at work was being really nice today
[[YOU SAW A MOVIE WITH:]] kristyl
[[YOU WENT TO THE MALL WITH:]] meg from walmart
[[SAID THEY HATED YOU:]] um...i think adam..but i dont even know if he said that

[[FAMILY]]

[[DO YOU INTEND TO GET MARRIED:]] sure
[[WHAT WILL YOU NAME YOUR KIDS:]] i fucking hate kids with a passion
[[WHAT DO YOU WANT YOUR HUSBAND TO BE LIKE:]] nice?
[[WHERE WILL YOU LIVE:]] canada!

[[RANDOM]]

[[WHO ARE YOUR GOOD FRIENDS:]] erin, alex, kristyl, meg and meg, brittany
[[WHO'S YOUR BEST ONLINE BUDDY:]] i dont know
[[HOW MANY EMAIL ADDRESSES DO YOU HAVE:]] two.
[[IF YOU COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE ONE THING IN TIME, WHAT WOULD IT BE:]] haha. lots
[[WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE:]] the expensive solon kind
[[WHATS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR:]] umpaloompas
[[HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE ON YOUR BUDDY LIST:]] like 33
[[HOW MANY PEOPLE DO YOU HAVE BLOCKED:]] none
[[THE 3 BEST INSIDE JOKES YOU HAVE:]] haha. a lot with erin. cant name them all
[[WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU WANT TO DRIVE:]] my car
[[WHAT KIND OF SHOES DO YOU WEAR:]] osiris, and flip flops
[[WHAT KIND OF CLOTHES DO YOU SLEEP IN:]] nude..haha. jk..um a tank top and underwear
[[WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU CALLED:]] meg from walmart. guess where she was? wally world!
[[WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED:]] somewhere pretty
[[HOW DO YOU EAT AN OREO:]] chewchew
[[IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE WISH, WHAT WOULD IT BE:]] a time machine
[[IF YOU COULD CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD IT BE:]] eh, nothing much really
[[WHAT DO YOU REALLY DISLIKE:]] stupid people
[[DESCRIBE YOUR FIRST KISS:]] haha
[[LAST FOUR NUMBERS IN YOUR PHONE NUMBER:]] why do u want to know???

just so you know, i was really bored. thank you and goodnight
 
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not again...=(   
02:12pm 22/07/2002
 
mood: sad
god, this sucks
i think my dads gonna go to the hospital today
its weird, but this doesnt even stun me
im so used to it
he has so many health problems
i love my daddy
hes such a cool person
fuck everyone who has ever made fun of him
your shit in my book
i love him soo much
and i dont want to lose him
but sometimes i wish he didnt have to go through the pain
and was in a "better place"
like he believes hes going
i hope he does for his sake
damn, this sucks
 
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12:30am 22/07/2002
 
mood: bored
i had a good time at work today
except for the fact it was really busy
and josh left early
so i couldnt show him this cd and sit in my car with him as i had planned
growl
thats ok.
were really touchy now
roar
cause its slow going..something showing yeah...yeah..
its moving soooo slow. =( i dont even know when i work with him next. =(
thank you alex for coming by at work. i really apreciate it and the mixed tape. muh! i love you
hmmm..what to do. boredoms over coming me
 
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i am bored as hell and i need to take a shower before i go to work   
12:45pm 21/07/2002
 
mood: happy

You're Ghost World!

Find out which one of my favorite movies you are!

Created by vivica
 
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12:26pm 21/07/2002
 
mood: refreshed
replay night is tonight. everyone come to media play from 7-10 cause its gonna be so much fun. plus, i want some friends to go. =) yea! ok, so ya, come to the media play by the chapel hills mall K?

rachel
 
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im happy feeling glad i got sunshine in a bag..   
11:52pm 20/07/2002
 
mood: my lips hurt..ouch
i have been getting some good cds lately
i got gorillaz on friday. (thank you meg)
and andrew wk today
at first i hated him
but now i love him
cause i actually listened to him
i think it all started with josh spechels
he explained it all to me
novelity. its all about the novelity
hes fucking insane. and amazing

alex, happy birthday!! you rock my world and i hope you had a good time except for the throwing up. i love you!!!!

i love lacy and ellie!! they rock. neal is cool and the other dude sucks. the one who likes you ellie. he sucks. haha. hes just an ass. im soo happy my brit found some good friends in pueblo. i love you dear and good luck with your dads wedding.

i love you meg. you are the best to get drunk with and hang out with. breakfast with terri the waitress was the shit. you so rock my socks new best friend!! ahaha! your soo working at media play. yesterday, haha. at the party, this one kid was complaining to me about media play and i was all "dude, i just fucking work there! lay off" haha. that rocked

my favorite 4 lines at the party...(drum roll)
4. this one goes to good old timmy. "call me" yeah right tim. im not ever gonna call you. haha. i mean, i lost your # dude. (aka: washed it off my hand) its ok. it was fun while it lasted. right?
3. this one goes to megs. "lets go get bill. hes in the van" megs, there was no fucking bill. haha. you said this fucking 183434330 million times. i kept on yelling at you that there was no bill.
2. this one goes to kristyl and kyle. "take off her shirt/ go for the ass" haha that was funny guys..i liked the rooting and cheerleading.
and the #1 spot goes to...
1. ADAM HOOZAH!! "dude, shes fucking going to harvard. her dad owns the north pole!!" lmao!!!!!! haha!!!!! dude, you so rock for saying that. that was the fucking most hillarious thing i have ever heard!!!! you rock for making me laugh soooo hard. =)

i love u kriz. thank you for looking out for me with the whole timmy thing. i soooo apreciate that. and thanks for making me laugh the whole time at the party. =) you rock my socks and i know that i can trust you with those pictures. i want to see them tho. you need to send them to me k?

work was a lot of fun today. this black dude was telling me how hott and gorgeous i was and was stunned to find out my age. it was kindda scary. haha. mack 4839305096775 for rachel this week. josh and i are getting so close. i did the mogely thing, alex. he remembers it. it is him. haha. cute eh? and we were talking about his brother a lot today too. and..sigh..hes so cute and he was walking really close to me today. ahh.. its going so slow but i like it and thats cause i really like him. i want to get to know him and not rush anything cause hes worth it. =) ahh.. hes my doll. my half japanese boy. <3<3<3<3

so eliches this week some time and moving helen. i also want to get my noise peirced soon as soon as i ask my work. my parents are pretty cool about those things.

im reading that new book i got "junky". its by my sisters boyfriends favorite author. how cool is that? i love chris. helen and him better stay together. hes good for her. thats what a relationship is. your bring out the best in eachother and shit. hell ya helen. you rock for finding chris. oh wait..i think he found you actually..haha whatever

gonna peace it tho. love ya kids. <3 muh!!!!!

rachel the front lawn hoe..ahah.. get it..a hoe?? like raking a garden??? i am just too damn witty for myself. burn!
 
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what the hell was i thinking????????   
09:00am 20/07/2002
 
mood: regretful
hehehe.
i had the weirdest night last night. all of you who were there know why. i dont know what the hell i was doing. to bad tims # washed off my hand. if im lucky now, hell never show up at my work. how do i get myself into these situations. growl. haha. whatever. it was entertaining.
sigh, what about josh tho? how sad. im impulsive like that. i need to teach myself a new lesson.
thank you kriz for talking to me last night. everything you said was true and stuff. it really made me think. i didnt sleep in that closet. i slept in maddies room. =) hahaha.
hmm..no more drinking and making out in the front lawn for a while k rachel? if ya like a boy at work a lot, why you be doing this....ya, thats right. you have no reason. ya little slut!! slut!! wahaha. thats the funniest thing i have ever heard.
yea! i get to work today. i miss work. it keeps me out of trouble..
helens moving in on saterday. wow. its sooo soon. that makes me really sad.
byebye for now, i need to go home soon. i want a shower

ps. does anyone want to go to waterworld/elitches on wend, thursday or friday with me? im driving up there if i can find a bunch of people to go with.
 
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54% bitch!!!!   
09:56pm 17/07/2002
 
mood: tired
I am 54% Emo

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the Emo Test at fuali.com
 
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so i dont care if you dont..and i wont say it if u wont..   
09:38pm 17/07/2002
 
mood: meh
lets see...since my last update i have...
lost my best friend
hung out with alex and kristyl
hung out with meg
this hott guy from the icecream shop keeps on talking to me
(saw him at work and then the mall?
hung out with my sis and her boyfriend
she lost her job =( meh, shes moving soon anyways
went to a meeting at work and was with josh the whole time =)
he wore his ska hat
i love him
hes sooo sexy
lets see..what else..
nothing much
i went to the ymca tonight
i was bored and had nothing to do
blah
i hate cake
today was helens 20th bday
i love her
i dont want her to move
growl
im gonna miss her
oh well..i have acess to denver now
whahahaha
i cant wait to work tomorrow
i need to go read the jungle
braging rights.....
blahblahbalhblakbhsqagasflas;fksdfnsd
bye
 
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work <3<3 =) =)   
10:24pm 13/07/2002
 
mood: ecstatic
josh came and saw me at work today..
omg..let me tell u...
hey guys, ya all know how ya think hes hot?
hes even hotter out of his work clothes and in his normal clothes
yummm....josh
hes soo hott.
he wears flip flops..aww
you should have seen his face when he saw me =)
cute
i cant wait for tomorrow =)
i get to see him again
yea! im soo happy
i love crushes like this
im gonna make him my new best friend..=)
yea!
 
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=)   
11:46pm 12/07/2002
 
mood: giggly
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3josh<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
 
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whahaha   
02:52pm 12/07/2002
 
mood: thoughtful

Who's Your Inner Psycho?
 
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what the fuck is wrong with me???   
09:20pm 11/07/2002
 
mood: between pissed and happy...
i love work
i like josh sooo much
i love rocky horror picture show
the dr. is a hott transsexual.
i hate willy wonka.. im never watching that movie again
i hate chocolate syrup and leather sofas...

can i ever keep a guy?
 
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terry cloth?   
08:13pm 09/07/2002
 
mood: accomplished
i went shopping.
i love clothes.
even tho my clothes look better on the floor..(winkwink)
haha
i love my new pants
they feel like a towel
yumm
i miss kyle.
 
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=)   
12:44am 09/07/2002
 
mood: content
im really happy right now. i miss kyle is the only thing thats wrong. i want to make sure hes ok. um..i talked to kristyl cause my dad let me go out. she makes me feel so much better. sigh. im not a slut. i dont regret what i did. i really care for kyle and thats all that matters. i mean, common, i was in love with the guy for a year or more. i missed him so much and then i got a chance to make up for that. <3<3<3 i love him. hes sooo freaking cool. =) oxoxoxoxoxxo
im sooo happy about what happened...growl. hehe
 
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